Breathing in Ecstasy

I have done a number of breathing sessions with you now, and each time they are an experience. I came to you because I felt that I still had tension in my body after the divorce.

After talking sessions with another therapist (who had also helped me), I was eager to do some physical work.

I chose your sessions because breathing is so basic and therefore so important.
 

You work open-minded and intuitively. There is no fixed plan, every time you discuss with me at the start of the session about what is needed. I decide for myself what I want to work on, but you always give good direction. As a result, the sessions have been very different each time. You have so many techniques that you can apply. Every time you work with a lot of respect and dedication.
 

To make it more concrete, here's one of my experiences:
We first discuss the purpose of the session. I tell you that I want to feel more freedom, that I am noticing having limiting thoughts. That I'm not good enough e.g.. Then I lie down on a mattress. You sit so that you can see my breathing clearly. I start with “just breathe a little fuller and deeper”, but I already find it difficult to know how to just breathe and do my best to breathe a little deeper. Especially from my stomach. You give me directions on how to make my breath longer and thus fuller and ask me to try to breathe in a circular way (without pauses
in between). I focus completely on my breathing.

Meanwhile, you start talking about my goal to feel more freedom. While I do breathe very consciously, I also enter a different kind of mindset. I am no longer aware of time, I feel more and more parts of my body start to tingle and meanwhile you continue to talk calmly. Every now and then giving a direction or modification about my breathing and as soon as my breath minimises or stops for a while you notice it right away.

Sometimes the pain I feel makes me emotional, because I don't feel good enough, even though I know I am. All the feelings seem to be getting stronger and are all allowed to be present and felt. I am far away, in some kind of trance, and yet I am fully conscious, a very intense experience. I tell them that I feel like a butterfly that has come out of its cocoon, but is not yet flying. We talk and associate with words related to freedom. I speak in short sentences and focus on my breathing, which is becoming easier and calmer. When you turn on the song 'Butterfly Woman' towards the end of the session, tears stream down my cheeks. I am deepley touched and it feels like the most beautiful song I've ever heard.

I feel the energy flowing in my whole body and I feel fantastic. When I get home I put 'Butterfly Woman' in my playlist, but it won't sound as nice as during the session. The intensity of my feelings during such a session is really intense.

But the best comes in the days and weeks that follow. I'm going to feel a bit more free, I care less about what others think, I dare to say more what I want. Always a step in the right direction, sometimes a small step back, but irreversibly in the right direction. Thank you!